Survivors know what it means to be treated like a thing. It can lead to this cumpulsion to prove one's humanity over and over again, cuz somewhere along the line this wasn't understood, i've been there and it's a painful desparate place to start from. Healing provides relief from this, which i'm greatful for. So now instead of needing every action to scream out :"See i am human! No, really, really i am!"
Now this feels more true: " i am and every once in a while i come up against something that inturupts me." Sometimes that's like being cut off mid scentance while i'm telling a realy good story,and that's irritating. Some times that's like having the phone disconect just as i'm about to tell the person on the other end that i love them , and it's frustrating. some times that's like being cut off from breath, which can be lethal, and that inspires my rage.
Silence kills. Keep talking.

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